In church we were talking about Job. During the discussion I thought what made Job succeed in his trails is he did not lock into feelings of anger or any other natural response to a trial. I bet he felt these feelings. Maybe for a slight moment.He was human. But he did not feed into them long. He kept his faith. He was perfect. I think perfect in this sense was he had hope and faith in Christ. He striveed to live the laws of God. He trusted God and knew that with him all things were possible to overcome.
Yes this last week I was a bit rebellious. I talked with God. But it was short and I would not kneel down for my prayer. My mind wanted to rebel more than my heart. This is a new day. And he has never left me comfortless. I know that. I know I am not truly alone. I know that this pain will heal. I feel more ready to move forward now. Her due date came with some more healing. I got some more grieving out of my system. I am ready to start a new day with a renewed start to living life again a little more fuller and a little more "normal" again.